April 13, 2011 § Leave a comment
Whoa, over the past few days I really haven’t had my shit together. It’s been an epic getting-my-shit-together FAIL.
I’ve been moping all morning watching Pride and Prejudice, longing for Colin Firth, while a to do list as long as something really, really long has been eyeing me off in quite the evil manner.
I have (typically) written a few posts without publishing them.
But this afternoon I finally shot off a few urgent emails, so I am grateful to myself for finally plucking up the courage to complete such a menial task, and I award myself fifty points.
Now I’m off to buy ingredients for dinner, and then I have to pay a few bills. I’ll be eternally grateful if I can get it all done before dusk draws nigh. And I’ll be pretty damn pleased if I can throw a load of washing on too!
March 23, 2011 § Leave a comment
Why am I giving up sugar?
1. The human body is not built to process refined sugar, and eating copious amounts of it found in a modern diet is detrimental to the body.
2. It’s an addiction, and like all addictions it needs to come to an end. I liken it to ending an unhealthy, to and fro relationship with that hunky, bong-pulling guy down the road.
3. It is one very specific attainable goal, which I hope to use as springboard for a generally healthier lifestyle (admission: I want others to get healthy too… I’m becoming a little evangelical about it all).
So it’s attainable, but is it easy?
Hello no! Like any addiction, a sugar habit is incredibly hard to break, especially when almost every food on supermarket shelves is laced with this particular drug.
How am I coming along?
I have good days and bad days, and sometimes even good weeks. I know for me it will be a long process, with a lot of internal reflection. It’s not something I’ll be able to do cold turkey. My bad days are obvious to me because I’ll develop a sugar-headache. And I know my bad days begin to manifest when my head space becomes a bit chaotic. Either I’m on a down in sugar-endorphin cycle, lacking self-esteem which kicks in a bout of self-pity and general moroseness or I’ll eat to feel good and compensate for dissatisfaction in other areas of life. I know more exercise would help lift my downturn, as it has in the past, but when one is in a dark place there is an extreme lack of motivation.
How am I moving past the bad days?
One day after keeping true to my sugar goal, on the way to work I stopped to fill my with petrol and bought a bag of lollies at the service station. I basically ate the whole bag for breakfast. Then later ate a few Lindt peanut butter Easter eggs which a colleague gave me.
It was a horrendous slump in an operation that was otherwise coming along nice and slowly. That slump can be hard to come back from, because it is followed by an overwhelming sense of shame and guilt, which was a catalyst for an entire week of sugar binging. The thing is, it’s all personal and relative, a bag of sweets and a few Easter eggs may not seem significant to some but it is all defined by the individual and their particular dysfunctional relationship with food and eating.
So I had my slump of a week. Then I read Treasure Yourself by Miranda Kerr. Prior, I was feeling pretty cynical about reading a book on self-improvement, written by someone in the business of superficiality, commercialism and materialism, and a super model no less – a species which aren’t known for their great intellects.
But it was lovely to read, somewhat anecdotal and all the while steering the reader with a gentle hand to bring positivity into their lives. I would like to share the two most important tools I found within its pages:
1. Start a Gratitude Journal
Almost every night before bed, my boyfriend and I like to read. Sometimes it might be for ten minutes, sometimes for an hour. I am going to take some of that time, and every night list what I am grateful for that day.
Appreciating what you have in life makes room for even more abundance.
2. Declare Daily Affirmations or Power Thoughts
If I affirm with myself enough that I eat healthily then I will eat healthily.
It’s easy to roll your eyes at the idea of the power of positive thinking, but I’ve decided to embrace it and I hope never to look back (I’ll let you know how it goes). I’m even going to have my most prominent Power Thought of the moment listed in the side bar, I encourage you to use it too. Life is too short to feel silly about trying to shift into a positive lifestyle, I’m ready to move on from being a self-deprecating Liz Lemon type surrounded by cheese wrappers (but that’s not to say I still can’t enjoy 30 Rock).
These are some Power Thoughts from Treasure Yourself which may help ease the struggle with refined sugar:
Wellness is my natural state – Caroline Myss
I choose nutritious food and treasure my body – Miranda Kerr
I love to exercise – Louise Hay
I am a vibrant, healthy and joyful being of light and love – Miranda Kerr
I have authored my own, albeit slightly stiff affirmation(but what more do you expect from a gal with a background in science):
I am full of knowledge and wisdom, on which I act to live at optimum health
So there you go, for me gratitude and affirmations will be a vital part of everyday life, and particularly the first point of call when I hit a bump in the sugar-free road, so I can hold onto my sanity, accept the moment as it passes and only move forward.